It seems the years have just loped along with the scenery blurring past in greens and browns and blues. Sure, I've seen individual pine needles and flowers along the way, but mostly, I thought about where I was headed and how I'd get there, and just enjoyed the passing scenery.
I've trained and taught for over 40 years, all over the US, giving private, group and semi-private instruction, with clinics, seminars and workshops, judging horse shows, teaching 4-H, Pony Club, and helping wild horses understand what their new jobs would entail. So now, at the peak of summer, I find myself sitting deep into the saddle and slowing down. I'll still train, teach and ride, and am fairly certain I will always do those things, but I am finally publishing my books and expanding my beloved world of photography.
At first, I felt sad and lonely sitting with the idea of no longer loading saddles, bridles, halters and surcingles into the back of my truck to go to work. The idea of no longer training hit me hard; as if a part of me was being ripped away, torn from my flesh and killing my soul. But over five years of tapering off, slowing down and backing off, I finally feel as if I'm adding to Me, instead of taking away. I know it's time to let go of that image of Tanya Buck, Holistic Horse Trainer and add, Tanya Buck, Author and Photographer to the 'what I do and who I am' list. Funny how we see ourselves, isn't it? I still see myself as Trainer, first, and taking that particularly old and worn hat off and replacing it with a shiny new one is… a little disconcerting. It makes me question who am I, really?
The answer is I am exactly who I've always wanted to be. Okay, I never became a pilot, but all the other 'things' on my list are now complete. I've only ever wanted to add something good to the world, to horses, especially. And I'm doing so. This is a very good feeling, indeed! So, on to my novel, and I do realize you all expected a training book or a horse psychology book or something non-fiction at the least, but I'm finding those books to be the most difficult to write. How much to say, when to shut up, what won't bore my dear readers to tears? I'll have one out soon, but here's my book of fiction, to entertain and maybe help in another manner.
WHITE HORSE is my first novel and is available as an eBook only at this time on Amazon.com. Here is a short description of what's inside:
Paizely Dunn can see the future, but only if someone is about to die, so when her current vision shows her sister being stabbed to death, armed and determined Paizely sets out to confront the would-be murderer. On her way to meet with the killer, she is thrown from her horse and lands in 1871. She's still in Colorado, where she sees herself in a past life as a Cheyenne woman on the run from a posse intent on hanging her for a murder she didn't commit. With almost 150 years separating her from her sister, Paizely has less than twenty-four hours to save both her sister today and herself in 1871.
A journey through two lifetimes and two centuries, with a bay stallion connecting everything, WHITE HORSE is a paranormal suspense brimming with fear, courage and self-discovery.
I will be publishing other books in the very near future--some fiction, some non-fiction. Horses will be the common thread in everything I write, except for one short story about Scuba diving. That one is about sharks.
Please feel free to give me any feedback you may want to, I look forward to hearing what you think.